Confessions: Hate

Today is a day just like any other day.  Today, I am one day closer to the rest of my life.  That's not in a pessimistic way.  Just the opposite, I'm one day closer to being able to move forward with my life.  Today, my confession is that I think I hate my job.  Is it sad that I only think I hate my job? Well, there are components of my job that I really like.  I love my patients and having money helps but I feel like I might put up with too much drama to make that worthwhile.  Isn't that a sad state of truth?  I am a therapist and I love helping people, so to help people I have to put up with this crap?  I've always been taught that hating something is wrong.  To make this even worse, I feel like I hate a whole group of people.  It's not any specific group of people though, it's more like the people that have certain personality traits, such as the desire to be better than everyone surrounding them, the specific thought of thinking that your better than other people around you, the desire to make other people feel inferior, the constant put downs, people who tell lies to make themselves look better or  tell lies to avoid confrontation.  This is just a few of the things that I can come up with off the top of my head that just really rub me the wrong way.  The confrontation thing is currently the one that is grinding my gears the most.  I mean, why on earth is it better to tell someone else about your beef with me than just tell me so that I can move past it.  Anyone else feeling that? Is it really a hard concept to grasp?

Also, another gripe right now is nurses.  Not all nurses, I mean I think nurses are a great thing and very important. I just find that sometimes, certain nurses get to "used to" their patients, and then when that patient has a sudden, rapid decline, these certain nurses don't seem to take notice or to think that anything is out of the ordinary, but I just have one quick news flash for these said nurses.... "Your dementia patient might always be a little confused....but right now he is excessively confused, and you know, he might be looking for the light. And if he wants go go towards the light, then that is his choice to make, but if he wants to spend a little more time tormenting CNAs then...let him...don't let him die.....honestly, if it's his time to go, then he will go."